Living lies like you did here today and in life in general lead to repeated relapses.... In construction they will be rooted out quickly if the task is above your pay grade...See, problems are figured out before you lay out that floor and the roof is cut in your mind so things will stack and the build goes smoothly....
Look brother, the last thing I'm there for is to pile upon you. I know you've had a rough go at it because sometimes you are honest. I just want you to know that there are other people who sympathize with you.
Do you think I never fucked up? Well you're wrong. I guess I was just lucky to not have a hothead toothless hillbilly there to beat the shit out of me and kick me off a jobsite that a smart Mexican would have survived on.
You're a BASE jumper, I never had the stones for that but I did do some stupid shit with cliffs and lakes about 30+ years ago. Heights don't bother me either but I was more of a climber. Now it's whole thing about hitting the ground that keeps me in check.
If I've misrepresented my abilities then I surely should be held accountable.