Look brother, the last thing I'm there for is to pile upon you. I know you've had a rough go at it because sometimes you are honest. I just want you to know that there are other people who sympathize with you.
Do you think I never fucked up? Well you're wrong. I guess I was just lucky to not have a hothead toothless hillbilly there to beat the shit out of me and kick me off a jobsite that a smart Mexican would have survived on.
You're a BASE jumper, I never had the stones for that but I did do some stupid shit with cliffs and lakes about 30+ years ago. Heights don't bother me either but I was more of a climber. Now it's whole thing about hitting the ground that keeps me in check.
If I've misrepresented my abilities then I surely should be held accountable.