That's pretty sick, ya know? It's like you're cheating on your wife. What does she think you're doing holed up in the office typing away? What lies are you telling her?
Maybe you should try just being an accepting American, you know a person who embraces freedom for all who call America the land of the free, and the home of the brave. You sound rather weak and scared in this great country that embraces people who come from terrible places around the world.