Tornado Alley (PROG)

[newmedman]

i've hovered around 170- 200 most of my adult life. I am lucky too that I've been up and down the road and didn't suffer any hits yet. Very lucky.

I expect it to be coming for me soon but so far I just keep knocking on wood and trying to stay myself. I can't go to sleep yet, there's too many people who are important to me that I need to see.

I was a dummy for abusing drugs and alcohol but I did what I had to do. Gotta hustle when you need to.

Paying the price now but I wouldn't give back any moment aside from coming home to an empty house from a 30 yr relationship. It still messes with me. I fucked that up all on my own because I was only looking out for our finances instead of being there for her.