You seem to belittle a lot. Is that a family trait? You got it from somewhere!
Dyfunction is a terrible thing to pass along.
I'll guarantee you one thing. The illusion of fame and fortune and so forth are lost on me.
Even though Bhagwan was a stooge in his personal affairs, he was a knowledgeable man with TONS of insight. He fell to the temptations of fame and wealth. I am very sorry for him. It cost him his life and legacy of teachings for some. I am able to sift the wheat from the chaff in most cases.
One thing you mistake is, I don't take my Self seriously at all. I passed through that obnoxious ego stage early in life. I was pretty insufferable as a young Sous Chef in my mid 20's. I realize the error of that REAL fast. "All is vanity..." as they say. I became a patient "teacher" instead of an arrogant depot.
But I do take the health of the Rule of Law in the American Republic with bloody seriousness. It matters deeply to people's lives. I am DEEPLY concerned with the return of natural justice.
Sorry it seems just a big game to you. And yeah,... what could you have done with an attitude like that?