Dear sister in Christ Linda
I do not know you personally, nor you I, and I know I a a newcomer to this board as well as the eternity board.
Like Precious Life, I am a Pastor and a sinner saved by grace. Just an older man that loves God's children, but even more so, I am hopelessly in love with our Savior, Lord, and Master.
My commitment to you, along with Precious Life's is to pray for you. To hold you up in front of the altar and to the edge of the throne, where almighty God the Father will look upon you because YOU HAVE AN ADVOCATE pleading your case and cause, none other than JESUS Christ, who is asking the Father on YOUR BEHALF to hear your requests.
YOUR job is twofold.
1. Be patient and listen to that still small inner voice.
2. Be faithful: in prayer, in reading your Bible daily so you feed your soul and mind the nourishment it needs to sustain it through all the trials and tribulations we ALL GO THROUGH.
I have another dear friend who is full of age and wisdom, and will be a prayer warrior as well as my assistant on my Bible Fellowship board at another website. SHE will also pray without ceasing.
Wehave you bathed in God's medium and access for help, prayer. Have faith my sister that HE WILL GIVE YOU ALL YOU NEED and perform the doing of it.
That being said, as brother Precious Life has pointed out, and Tenac expressed, if you are endangered that changes everything. But unless and until that happens, God's Word is clear and your faithfulness is required and needed as a shining testimony to your unsaved spouse.
Be strong and of good courage. David knew what it was like to be afraid, and fear, and we have the wonderful 23rd Psalm to read and take counsel in.
Bless you this night as you purpose in your heart to obey God and He will reward thee openly for trusting HIM.
Your servant in Christ,
MIB