yes Tenac, but I have spoken to you in private, precious life does not know of the abuse I have taken. However, my husband has NOT always been this way. And, as time is passsing, he is opening up to me. I am beginning to believe that he is angry with God for his illness and he is angry with me for being so understanding. It isn't right. But, it makes sense to me. And now, I am not alone in this battle. I have a whole army of Christian Soldiers. Hey...if this doesn't work...believe me...I am outta here.