Oh lawd! Another emotional outburst from the "wanted to be rich yesterday" crowd.
Get this through the thick skull. Everybody knew damm well about this GGI financing, but "you" gambled on "to da moon" profits in "your" timeframe.
Remove yourself from the picture for awhile, then you might see a "different" picture, that does not revolve around Goldy's "present" needs, or "present" wants.