I unfortunately have to live in that... I've made mistakes but I never double down on them. If you saw my ex now you would say, how do you look like you're 40 years old when you're sixty. She would say divorcing me was the best accomplishment in her life.
I just roll with the punches these days. My doggo is gone. She is so happy on that farm. When I rolled up this morning, she didn't even care if I was there, she was too busy drag racing the horses. She loves to run and I can't provide her with that luxury like a 20 acre farm could.
It's been bitter but so am I. I've had friends and aquantinces that are all past their expiration dates. I wonder for myself sometimes but I always give back.