quit being a baby. I know it's hard enough to raise two kids and live in a place that wants to slash your healthcare and retirement funds but you don't have a BASE jumping leg to stand on when you cast blame on everyone but yourself.
You are a good person and it's hard to deal with addiction. I know this first hand because I'm a member of the club. I lost a little angel awhile ago that I was not able to take in according to our laws.
It goes day to day and the hurt happens but we still get up and go out for new people everyday.