you don't read, at least not past a headline. Sorry for your disability. I know a couple good teachers and tutors who would be willing to help you learn but you probably wouldn't like them because they are not knuckle dragging mouth breathers.
Shit, I even taught a few in my day, not as good as the professionals, but enough to get by. My ex wife's father and sister were both totally illiterate but we all got together and helped them both get a GED