What hurt you so bad to make you have such little self-worth?
Your repeated antisocial behaviour from this board's community norm not only demonstrates your inability for impulse control, but clearly communicates the lack of respect you hold for yourself.
Self worth is gained by making those individuals around you better not through degradation.
Suggested Reading
NPD = NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER
Narcissism: Denial of the True Self
Alexander Lowen
Borderline Personality Disorder
A Patients guide to taking control
Gina M. Fusco
Antisocial Personality Disorder
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I offer these suggested readings, not as criticism of your actions, however, as an avenue to bring about self awareness.