Because I know myself best..lol don't know how to explain it..but I am an impulsive idiot at times doing things i KNOW NOT to do.. LIKE i said I SWEAR off SUBS!!!!!!!! 90% of the time I regret it.. what do i do Friday..buy SYCI all the time telling myself "Mary,you swore off subs..then the little voice says..yeah after this one..this one is different" lol I don't follow my rules..i can give great advice but have a hard time with staying consistant and focusing..It's my demon i battle.