I think this is by far your best post ever on this board. I too have been annoyed at your repeated questions on BRCD vs. NVDA, but now in context, I understand better where you are coming from. I'm glad now I didn't over react and put you on filter.
Being out of work is not easy - stessful for sure.
My humble opinion is that the answer to your problems does not reside in daytrading, but you'll have to determine that for yourself.