Christian Prayer Room

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As y'all know...i lived the life of booze and drugs for 25 years...age 15 to 40...and all the insanity that went with it. I traveled construction and made really good money which actually was a curse in many ways as that helped fuel that helter skelter lifestyle...single man...out on the road...answering to no one...except...maybe...at that time my master...satan. Then at age 40 i finally hit rock bottom...i mean the real rock bottom all physically, mentally, emotionally and yes spiritually because i was about as far away from God as a person could get? And at that moment in time...with all hope lost at ever seeing another day sober....so sick and tired of waking up sick and tired from my self enduced comas...i cried out to Jesus to forgive me and save me...and...He did! Now...i have been totally sober for 29 years...BUT...i truly believe once a alcoholic always a alcoholic...once a druggie always a druggie. You see folks...the demon of addiction is real and strong...NOT more powerful than God...BUT...once addiction has had its claws in you it can be relentless in enticing you back into its grasp often times with just a offer of a little taste....it will be ok...you know you miss me. Yes...even a born-again believer with the Holy Spirit living in them can slip back to using....remember...addiction is a demon that can and will keep coming back trying to lure you back in as satan knows our weaknesses...our triggers....wrong place at the wrong time or the right place at the right time...Gotcha! However...satan can not have us once we are saved...born-again...but he will totally try and drag you back into the power of addiction with his only goal and desire to ruin your life and to rub it in Jesus face...so to speak...look at what your follower is doing again. With all that said...my point...here 29 years later...once in a great while when something really trips my trigger...and hey lets be real here...we all get our triggers tripped from time to time and anger raises its ugly head within us for any number of reasons...right? And once in a great while when that happens i so totally will hear a whisper in my ear...in my head that says....Get High....Get High....and it really is like a whisper...makes me think of that serpent that confronted Eve. And in that moment i will shake my head...literally shake my head and say out loud...satan and your demons get away from me in the name of Jesus...like two or three times and i keep on truckin. In my walk with Jesus i can not imagine after 29 years sober that i would ever go back to that lifestyle...and...sometimes even today when talking to Jesus i still say never let me forget who i use to be and what i use to be...but....never say never to the demon of addiction and tempt it to say...oh yeah...let me at him...ill show you. You see folks...the war has been won that day on that old rugged cross when Jesus died for you and for me...but...the battles continue until that day that God calls us home...thank You Jesus for sending me a Helper...the Holy Spirit!

I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
Galatians 2:20

For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:38-39

I Have No Regrets About My Past...My Past Is Who I Am Today...Born Again!
Rick j Sane