Christian Prayer Room

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Being sobor dont just mean that you are not drinking. Being sobor dont just mean that you are not doing drugs. It is waking up every single day with the weight...the memory...of everything you have done to yourself and to others and choosing to face it head on. No more band-ads...no more getting numb...no more running or hiding...it is you deciding to do something about the mess you have created with your life...the confusing and regret in your head. You are so sick and tired of waking up sick and tired knowing that every time you get high is really nothing more than another opportunity for death to consume you. Sobor is taking responsibility...sobor is being accountable...probably for the first time in a long time. Being sobor is sitting in silence while shame screams at you and staying anyway...no matter how loud the the voices get. It is feeling joy and not needing to chase a high. Sobor is feeling grief and not needing to run from it. Yes...being sobor means remembering every mistake you have made...every person you have hurt...every lie you have told. And still choosing to try the best that you can...as hard as you can...to defeat this demon that you have embraced for whatever amount of time you have. To have victory once and for always from this lifestyle that you have so hated for so very long that has or almost destroyed you. Being sobor is rebuilding bridges that you have burned that in reality might never fully stand again...but...you try. That means you try with people....family and friends...that will still keep their guard up...even when you have changed. But hey...lets be real...remember who you use to be...would you trust you...yet? But learning to not to take it personally...read that again...learning to not to take it personally. It is being the one who use to disappear...but now...you show up. You learn to say... “I am sorry”...and...you mean it. You learn to love again....yourself and others. You do the hard thing...the right thing...even when no one sees it. And its Ok to give yourself a little pat on the back....be proud of the new person that you are becoming. Being sobor is choosing not to hide...not to isolate...not to get numb...not to run. But to face life head on being sobor and clear headed and looking to a new and bright future. Being sobor is killing off the old version of you again and again and again...until...something real starts to grow inside your head and heart. Addiction is a disease...a demon...that hey...lets be real...you most likely brought on yourself. And recovery…that is a fight...a daily fight...a choice...every single day. But im hear to tell you today...it is a fight...a battle...a war that can be won...How? Here is the good news. Getting sobor and staying sobor...the only true and lasting hope is thru a relationship with Jesus. Hear me right here and now and remember this. The only true and lasting hope is thru a relationship with Jesus...and lets be real...even thru the almighty power of God....a awesome relationship with Jesus...and the Holy Spirit living in you...all of this after you have been saved...born-again...addiction is still a daily battle....there is truth in the ole saying...living one day at a time. When the devil has you he dont want to let go and he truly is like a roaring lion looking for who he might devour. But remember...once you are "Rescued...Redeemed....Restored...you are born-again...the devil can have at you but he can no longer can have you. Once you are a child of God...."truly" a child of God...you will always be a child of God! If you are sober right now...i am proud of you. If you are trying to get sobor...dont stop. If you have slipped...get back up...you are not done yet. Jesus will never leave or forsake you...I know....i lived the life of drugs and booze for 25 years just shy of death...and...I have been totally sobor for 29 years now.....How?....JESUS!

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life
John 3:16

I Have No Regrets About My Past...My Past Is Who I Am Today...Born Again!
Rick j Sane