Tornado Alley (PROG)

[newmedman]

It's okay, I'm just soul searching. Most of you are older than I am and I'm stuck in a rut between myself and the yellow sign that says "bump ahead". I could piss it all away now, or go on.

It's not a fortunate decision to have to look 20 or 40 years ahead into my future and try to gather myself. It's been years in the making brother. I've been alive for almost 55 years now and only known you all for a little bit of it.

If you all were around to read my posts at ten when my father was beating me bloddy for missing his sign from the coach's box, you'd feel better. Or me getting in between him and my mother as I grew up. I didn't have kids because I never wanted another child to experience that again..

I know what it's like to be the subject of male aggression. It's never good enough for them and they will beat you to a pulp, regardless of wether they know 2+2=4..

They use their prowess to attack you and then blame the same attack on you.

I'm all grown up now and living in a world that I never imagined. I always went out of my way to help others who were less fortunate, I also got called a pussy and a faggot for doing that. Took some lumps but it never changed my direction. It's not going to change it now. It's my decision and only my own.