It's the best thing that you do. You are lucky to have so many friends around, including Xoie.
Doing the right thing when we have spent so much time on the other could never be easy.
As you well know it takes courage, commitment and stamina to tough it out.
It was Plato who said, “He, O men, is the wisest, who like Socrates, knows that his wisdom is in truth worth nothing”