Tornado Alley (PROG)

[newmedman]

I think it's more of a Freudian thing with the oral stuff. LOL tough to admit but I always needed something in my mouth. From smokes to drinking, it took awhile to change habits. Even when I stopped the alcohol, I still would pound a gallon or two of water every day just to drink.

Smokes were tougher even after I quit alcohol. I was like OK I just opened up a new bottle of water so I need a smoke to go with it.. It was hard to quit but I knew I had to.

Do I feel better? I don't know but I keep telling myself that. It's not like there was some great transformation after quitting drinking and smoking. I still steal a hit or two off a joint that's passed around at a party or take a shot of some crazy new shit the girls bring by but it's just what it is.

I'm never going back to what I was and that's what is important to me. I accept my faults and keep winding down that road.

not afraid, but still being afraid.

Hellen Reddy tunes are awesome.

I'm stuck in a different era for my age myself....