What is wrong with you, you are not some great philosophical thinker, life is never about both sides of everything, you are not a young man. I could understand some of your posts if you were some child just venturing into the world.
I will put you in your 60s, you are supposed to know who the fuck you are, or at least have a very good idea of what you hold dear to yourself.
You sound like a child who has trouble wiping his ass, life is simple, you wipe your ass, but then you do not sit there and smell it, you throw it away, it is shit, there is nothing philosophical about shit.