You don't have to get cranky to contribute. And even at your young age, lol, you are getting older, so it also fits you have all the right in the world to mellow. To change. Some of us should. Some of us do.
Yesterday up at Marrickville i had a quick sidewalk conversation with an acquaintance, Joe, up there. He's bummed money heaps of times. Always pays it back. To me, anyway. When i told him about my no-pokies-until-Maddy-gets-back November deal i arranged down at the GG he said, good. Then bit later he added, as long as you are happy, he said. And continued with "As long as i have food on the table and can pay my rent. I've just lost mine for the day at the TAB .. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tabcorp . I live day by day." He's hanging in and his rationalizing helps him. He's not happy though.
The TAB used to be government owned. Gawd knows why it was sold.
You know you can be a contributor when you feel the time is right without throwing verbal bombs. LOL Good luck with the billion.
It was Plato who said, “He, O men, is the wisest, who like Socrates, knows that his wisdom is in truth worth nothing”