Capstar - thanks for your perspective. I totally understand. And as for saving myself, I'm doing something very cathartic which will lend itself to that process. Trust me when I say that I will get emotional satisfaction, as I have with each and every challenge I have ever faced and put behind me. We all find closure in different ways, and my way will hopefully reveal itself in a big way to the reading public one of these days.
May you find good health, happiness and prosperity in this new year, fresh with promises of better times.
Jannie
The important thing is not to stop questioning.
(Albert Einstein)