GratitudeDude...I am so sorry for what you are going through...I do want to say that(without sounding cheezy) that it is never what happens to us that defines us, it is how we react to it. Every successful person I have ever met has this positive way of looking at everything. I was introduced to this way of thinking in many ways but there are 2 things that helped the most. The rich dad poor dad books and the teachings of abraham by ester and jerry hicks. I watched friends do these 2 things and manefest great things in their lives. I am a single struggling mom who at one time had to eat my daughters leftovers. I have 3 houses now and well was hoping for some success in the stock market as well. I work everyday at remaining positive and the key is to not think about the things that don't want(like going broke) because you will attract it. What I would ask of you is to take some deep breaths and look at what you are grateful for all the time. Think about getting the ester and jerry hicks book on cd and the rich dad poor dad. And remember, this SLJB ain't over til the fat lady sings. Good luck to you and God bless you.