It's a shame that you have focused only on the negatives for a couple of years now, never the positives that are long and extensive. I understand financial loss/ruin someone experiences can enhance that vibe, but sometimes we all have to remain neutral and regather our thoughts.
You could have been making bags of money like the rest of us right now if you focused on the positives. Still time to get on the train.
It's been going parabolic, another 10% yesterday alone.