Tornado Alley (PROG)

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sigh .. while i sat on a tractor up and down up and down trying to figure out wtf was wrong with me .. and shoveling turkey shit on weekends .. not ALL the time, but mucho much of

not because i was kicked out of Sunday school, for asking 'How do you know God isn't a big fat African women' (apology to all of any with any connection there, there was nothing even then against any others .. it was only the furthest image i could think of at the time from the Anglo-Saxon cool looking guy image of God Jesus all pictures portrayed .. and still do ..)

but because friends worked on cars and built boats .. being told i was stupid by Dad for asking such as .. 'Dad, how do you know that way out in space there could be a brick wall' .. yeah, stupid, but i wasn't really serious was i, and was sick of being told i was stupid for so many other questions and things .. pick pick pick .. anyway ..

as one in all top classes in year 9 (still top classes in 11-12, but grades plummeted: long walks at 3am after studying instead of tractoring then) i got into a new Electronics class .. then broke a femur and guess i wasn't top, or interested, enough (though did manage Economics 100 (101?) in uni basically out of the textbook, as the American teacher (just because he was .. and US gov. in a South American embassy, as i recall) .. was so boring a couple of us seldom went to his lectures .. to handle it while in traction for weeks in the hospital must have been too hard, too, for my teacher to come to the hospital so much, too .. he was great .. i enjoyed playing chess with a doctor more .. in uni, yeah, i connect to the drinking bit .. study hard/play hard was the rather irresponsible rule then .. with low esteem ever present ..

oops, toooo much personal rant, dunno why that came .. I WILL try the tinfoil balloon trick .. lolol .. gotta do that .. promise and will report .. when? .. but will ..