Stcgg: thanks for your post
I do agree, much about Jesus is a mystery and requires Faith,
believing what one cannot see,
it's not always easy. I suppose, from a logical standpoint, if I am wrong, then I will be nothing but a dead body deep sixed after my demise.
Again, on the flip side of the logic standpoint, if Jesus did exist, and I believe he did, he did say "I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except though me." John 14:6.
Now, the great thing is, He gave us free Will, so we have the choice, to:
1. Accept Jesus(By His Grace and Mercy,Gift of God Eph 2:8-9)
2. Reject Him
To me, from a logic standpoint, either Jesus is who he says he is, or he is a complete lunatic.
We have free will, and I appreciate your honesty, it comes down to that,
regards
Briboy