They were deleted, because they were deemed worthless, with no further distribution. Because you have history of all holdings, doesn't mean they still exist. I have history of every stock ever sold, do I still hold them? No.
The desperate lies you tell yourself, to feed your denial, is part of the mental illness of denial. You have lied to yourself, and others, for 15 years, without ever once being correct.
Escrows are gone. Deemed worthless, with no further distribution. These are the words directly from the brokers, by way of the trust. Nothing, absolutely nothing can be done to bring them back. It's over in reality. Unfortunately, you will spend the rest of your life telling yourself lies, feeding your denial.
You can get help, or you can live a lie, like you have for a decade and a half. The sickness can get worse. Just look at LG... Pretending people are being offed, and strong armed mafia style to shut up..
Pure insanity. Fact.
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