Sorry to hear CED.. only takes one big trade to make it back :*( Have you thought of maybe doing 1-2 contracts a trade or $100-200? Not sure what your sizing is but maybe that helps?
Everyone trades different, just what works for me so I dont wake up one day to a decimated account..ect
Overtime, a trader may have an advantage over someone else based on effort, due diligence, intelligence, risk tolerance, emotional state...ect but at any given time, noone knows where the heck the market is going with 100% certainty... ever.... once i realized that, its a revelation...
Not saying to not pick brains, or ask questions.. but more so to trust yourself, have conviction in your trade, and have a plan.
The road to a profitable trade may take a different path for you, then me or someone else..ect
Dont feel bad man. I know it's easy to say buy these are very difficult times to trade. Especially options. Professionals are getting killed out there..