BigRain
I may have asked the same questions a few years ago. Everyone has to start somewhere. It seems that you need to start with "trading in the stock market 101". I'm not making fun of you, seriously, I'll try to help as much as I can. I might be able to help when you're a little bit farther along, but right now I don't have a link to a good beginers course. Maybe some of the others here has a link to a source that will explain how stocks are traded in the market. First of all, learn how the market is "supposed" to work. Learn the terminology. Study charts. After you have a grasp on some of the basics, then we might be able to help you.
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