I would keep my faith and go and I would pray for God to lead me. I would walk in the righteousness of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Let your light shine before others that they may see your good works and glorify our Father which is in hevean. (sorry if I mis quoted that, I don't have my bible with me right now)
I think for everything there is a reason and a purpose. I think back to myself when I came to a point of soul searching. What if I were sitting in that congregation? Knowing what I know now, I sure as heck would have wanted you sitting there next to me to point out what scripture says vs, what I might be hearing there.
Everything I post is just my humble opinion. Do your own DD.