i'm trying. there's like at least 40 people I could call and yet i feel like the entire world is caving in around me and can't pick up the phone. My friends, my mother, nothing just dead.
afraid to go outside because I don't want to see another human. All the ones I've spent years with. the little ones that I love so much. nobody.
I started out good today but somehow it all twisted, and no, it wasn't the wordle.
this stuff is real folks. I never got covid in all the time I spent running around during the outbreak but I sure got this depression shit from birth.
I don't know why it hit me again. Maybe from stopping smoking? I do feel terrible about what happened last week in my timeline but it's not the worst shit that I've seen.
this one feels rotten. i just want to burn it all down. Sorry for unloading but I need to leave it somewhere just incase I do something stupid.
I'm not going to, but just incase.