We almost made that decision about the feeding tube two days ago. We decided against it. Yes it is very very hard to watch and it is extremely draining. I am sorry for bringing back those memories for you. I have been wondering if she is going to pass here on Christmas Eve or Christmas myself. Today is my mom and dad's wedding anniversary. 45 years. I feel terribly for my dad. It is also my anniversary with my wife as well. 19 years. We got married on that date in honor of my mom and dad. To top things off...my grandfather...my dad's dad..was rushed to the hospital last night..and is non-responsive. When it rains...it pours. This Christmas has absolutely sucked. I'm trying to put on a face for my kids too. I want them to have some semblance of a nice Christmas