I believe wilma that you need to move beyond the phase of daily justification (seems to be driving fear more than confidence for you)
Im not saying to disregard all the motions because yes it can generate excitement/angst.
Look at all the information available already collectively ,that has steered away from actual events that should drop confidence.
Associate the science to be a/one of critical release for your next move
Assess where you think this Co is, and compare it to conventional ramp up and approvals. Make your decision then if you can sleep easy with your money put holding..
if you can't, consider shrinking your position or something else.