Please do not do it!!! I care! It is not worth it. It may all seem lost but it is not. Please reach out to someone, anyone, who you care about or love. Anyone, who can pull you out of this pit. Please don't!
You have lost nothing! But if you do it you will. Like you said, you came so far.. Please if you are still alive, at anytime you read this and feel ready to, please let me know that you are okay.. God bless!!!