Trueheart, I just saw the movie A Ghost Story. It's about suffering a grievous loss and the process of letting go. After a couple of centuries, even the ghost comes to the realization that his love is not coming back and, finally, let's go and moves along. I respectfully suggest that maybe it's time for you to do the same, my friend. DPDW ain't comin' back. Best Wishes and Good luck -Fritz