Losses professional, financial, and personal are pretty large. here. I have reached the i do not give a ---- point in the last year. slowly getting together. Lets face it SDRXP is the equivalent of shooting the Moon in the game of hearts. I spent so many years cautiously building a future for my family. (well more cautious than i am now) Now that the family thing is imploding and i have lost half or more through that process. What to the poker players call it. "Tilt" i think is the expression.