Regardless of what others expect of you, what do you expect of yourself, if anything? Do you think you gave everything you could to the job, while you were daytrading 80% of the time? LOL LOL Believe me, I know where you are coming from, I witnessed many (about 25%) of gov't workers who were putting in 40 hours to get a free handout, not to put in an honest days work. The ultimate irony came when the yearly evaluations went to Pass/Fail and individual excellence awards became group awards, guaranteeing that people like you benefited from those that actually cared about performing to their max. That sir, is why I now am an ex federal employee.
Once again, I say that I detest everything you stand for.