First, I predict nothing by timeline. Chances are, I will die as well, but that does not invalidate the End of the Age, which will arrive at some point, whether you, or your offspring, believe it or not, IMO.
Secondly, I hope you realize that what you call "my problem," I see as your problem.
Thirdly, I don't fear anything, because I know my eternity is secure, and I don't hide from anything, or I certainly would not put my thoughts here, to be "recorded," as you say, now would I?
And finally, your interpretation of my thoughts as "paranoid" or "putting myself on display" is your right, given to you by living in a land formed as a representational REPUBLIC with a Constitution. When YOUR gov't, and YOUR teflon leader remove those rights, let's talk again.
