JSTEEL.. thats fine, just wanted to offer...but I do understand. You and I come from two different worlds and it is often hard to find common ground between two individuals with such unparalleled lives. but at the end of the day, we are still human, and some days are better than others. I don't like to see others struggle through hard times even if they aren't "friends". I sincerely wish you the best of luck in getting through your troubles, and if I might offer some advice, don't be afraid to lean on your friends and family to help you through your struggles.
Sincerely,
JPR