My heart made me reply one more time,as I can see, you are in need of a lot of help,,, yes I agree, there is much more to life here on earth, earth is just the beginning my friend, we use so little of our brains here on earth for a reason, you are being tested for the next life, world, every action you make, is recorded in your brain, and when you die, as many say, you see your life flash before your eyes, that is when everything good and bad is revealed,,,I believe the ones that pass, move on to greater better places, the ones who fail, well you get a do over, however,maybe you go back to ant level, God knows, someone has to be the ant, question is, are you going to pass, you probly all ready know the answer, it is in your heart,,,