MY BORN-AGAIN BIRTHDAY!
Yesterday...the day set aside that we celebrated Thanksgiving although everyday is a day to give much thanks...but you know what...today im really giving thanks because today...Nov. 27th...is my "Born-Again" birthday! Its been 20 years now! Ive been sitting here this morning thinking about the Rick Sane of 20 years ago and the Rick Sane of today. The Rick Sane of 20 years ago was approaching the end of a 25 year period of putting enough alcohol and drugs in my body to most likely have killed Coxes Army. The Rick Sane of 20 years ago had been in a few car wrecks...overdosed a couple times...who knows how many times some level of alcohol poisoning. You could fill a book with the countless stupid things i did that should have killed me. There was a few over nighters in jail and a couple times for a few months. i had lost count of how many times i had awoke at whatever time of the day and night that i had totally laid on the thin line of life and death from so much stuff in my body that my body functions had completely let go. i was emotionally, physically, mentally and especially spiritually a total train wreck...and...i had accepted the fact that i would never see another sober day and that i would surly soon be dead as in the last two years of that lifestyle...even though i was flying high...i had become so paranoid i thought i was dying every waking moment. i didnt give two hoots about much of nothing. And here i am today...complete contentment in my life...happy...filled with joy. i dont stress about nothing and i dont worry about nothing...and why is that?....JESUS! You see...at the end of that 25 years of helter skelter living...i got down on my knees one night in my bedroom...wasted as i always was...and i cried out to Jesus to forgive me my sins...to save me from this earthy hell i created for myself and also from eternal hell. And after 25 years of not stepping foot in a church in total rebellion against God...where was Jesus...He was right there in that bedroom waiting for me and He wrapped His loving arms around me and here it is 20 years later and He is still holding tight to me. Yep...i can say without a shadow of a doubt...the Rick Sane of 20 years ago and the Rick Sane of today...they are as far apart as the east is from the west. Now ill give myself a "little" pat on the back at this accomplishment but you know what...without Jesus and His awesome love for me...i wouldnt be sitting here typing this right now. So...if i die today...these past 20 years of knowing Jesus as my Lord and Savior has made my whole life all worth the living and Jesus has a home for me in heaven! Thank you Jesus!
I Have No Regrets About My Past...My Past Is Who I Am Today...Born Again!
Rick j Sane
I Have No Regrets About My Past...My Past Is Who I Am Today...Born Again!
Rick j Sane
