Bible

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Last week i talked a lot about heaven and probably even more about hell...and what a person can do and not do to go to one or the other. So this morning i want to talk about me...and where my relationship with Jesus stands. As ive said here many times...i lived a life of alcohol and drugs for a good many years. Then one night i got on my knees and cried out to Jesus and ask Him for forgiveness. That very next day i was a changed person...i felt relief...i was born-again! i stopped with the cussing. i stopped taking the Lords name in vain. My paranoid personality, anger and depression was gone or at least unnoticeable. i started reading the Bible, started going to church, had a new outlook on life. What happened was...i was truly born-again...my life had changed...i was filled with the Holy Spirit...i now had a personal relationship with Jesus. And from that moment in time i started doing all that i could to become more like Jesus every day...as best i could. Now here we are...19 years later and where do i stand in my walk with Jesus? Saturday night i woke from my sleep and i had this overwhelming feeling that i was dying. i cant explain that but i know that feeling because the last few years of my addiction i had that feeling many times. So when i woke i sat up on the side of my bed and i think i said...Lord..is it time? i sat there for a couple minutes and it passed and i laid back down and i spent a few minutes talking to the Lord. Now...i dont doubt my salvation...i believe once truly saved always saved...but...sometimes i doubt my salvation. i also cant explain that but i personally think that its a healthy way to look at our personal relationship with Jesus...to keep ourselves in check...meaning are we living right...by means of the Holy Spirit. So as i lay there talking to God...i said...am i Ok Lord...if i die tonight will i enter into heaven and spend eternity with You. And i told God...i dont want to go to hell...am i Ok. And i talked to Him about the truth of scripture. About my belief in Him and Jesus...and what Jesus did for me by dying on the cross and rising from the dead. i simply was just talking to my heavenly Father to bring peace to myself and just making sure that i was Ok in my walk with Jesus. And then as i lay there talking to God about something so personal as actually not knowing if something was wrong and that i could very well be in eternity before i woke the next morning...i fell asleep in my conversation about Rick...Jesus...heaven and hell. i reckon thats what we call...blessed assurance!
Do you have that?