Arilau, STOP NOW! You always think the consequences of smoking will happen to someone else, not you. I'm sure Peter Jennings thought that way, too. How can you possibly read of Zeev's current struggles with lung lesions and continue to work towards creating your own health crisis? SMOKING CAN KILL YOU, and sooner or later it likely will.
The patch helps, but try the lozenges -- a friend who was a long-time smoker used them so successfully she ended up addicted to them and had to fight that habit, too -- but not until after she had overcome her addiction to cigarettes (and, trust me, her battle was a lot easier to fight than the one Zeev has taken on!)! You can stop smoking, too, you just have to want to badly enough.
Bottomline, my point is, smoking may be pleasurable to the smoker, but it is not worth dying for. Please, please, arilau, truly accept that this habit can kill you and stop, NOW!
Newly